Archive for September, 2013

Galactic Tea

Tuesday, September 24th, 2013

Scrawled this in my notebook on the early morning of September 13th.

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I drank this super powerful tea earlier during dinner and couldn’t fall asleep — heart was beating a little too fast.

To wear down my restlessness, I tried going for my usual medicine: reading super technical writing by dull table lamplight. I alternated between a science paper discussing an interpretation of Rand Fisher’s “average effect” and a recent entry from The Paris Review’s vaunted interview series, “Art of Poetry No. 97,” with Susan Howe.

My eyes did grow woozier, my muscles wearier from my odd bedtime reading positions, yet overall, my mind became more excited. Despite just beginning to grasp the concepts broached and implied in either piece, I saw, I felt a glorious, milky thread connecting not just some fucking thing called Language Poetry to population genetics, but wormholing together the academic depths of every subject in between. The thread is an arm of a ghost of a galaxy I cannot begin to commit into words.

I am still too ignorant and wonder whether my small self can ever develop the thorough awareness of detail necessary to articulate this vision into specific terms.

I want to puke — there are so many things I will never know.

I need to drink tea more often.

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I need to get better at disappearing. Will be working more offline in the coming months.

Dream Recollection — Eye

Monday, September 9th, 2013

One of my eyes was removed. The removal itself was painless, done for some reason that has since been lost to memory and by a party that I can likewise no longer recall. Nonetheless, I was very affected and harrowed — I did not take too well to the reduction in my field of vision.

Recurring Dream — Missed Chemistry Class

Thursday, September 5th, 2013

Last night, I revisited a plot thread that has terrified me before in a handful of previous dreams: I forget that I have signed up for a chemistry class, and only remember that fact when I am made aware that the midterm will be in two days. It is an embodiment of anxieties from my college days. Accidental nudity, stage fright, and getting lost were also introduced into the mix as complementary complications. This dream was simply an amalgamation of anxiety and I was quite glad to wake up.